家、記憶與藍圖​

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過去，母親利用攝影紀錄下大量天真燦爛的我，那是關於「愛」的家庭記憶。經歷多次的遷移與漂泊，曾經讓我無法理解關於「家」的日常意義，於是，在創作中我緊扣著憂鬱與迷惘，在蒙太奇式的拼貼、剪輯與藍曬、繪畫的操練中，漸漸築起自己對「家」的面面真實與幻想。

 

本創作論述標題中的「藍圖」是指對未來的構想與計畫，而我試圖編造與保藏的回憶，是為了回朔生命最璀璨的原點，由那裡重新建築邁向未來，然而，過多的影像也讓我深陷泥沼，創作中記憶艱難地流變著，對「家」的想像與矛盾不斷延異。

 

我從「這裡／此刻」，深入時間的「那裡／曾經」，惝恍迷離的兩端相互滲透，在交織又別離的時光空隙裡，試圖開拓出情感可以自由進入與回返的路徑；我並不是想追憶那段逐漸消失的有限記憶，只是不間斷的用熟悉的「媒材」、「影像」造句，搭架起對「家」的「記憶」與「想像藍圖」。

 

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Home, Memory and Blueprint

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My mother used photography and documented a number of the innocent and dazzling image of me in the past. It is the family memory in relation to ‘love’. I used to unable to realize the usual meaning regarding ‘home’ after many times of relocating and wandering. Hence, I stick closely to sullen and lost in my works, and use montage, collage, editing and painting to build up aspects of truth and fantasy towards ‘home’ gradually.

 

The concept of ‘Blueprint’ is refer to the idea and plan about future. I tried to convert and preserve the memories which were the brightest in my life in order to recall the origin, restore from there and heading to the future. However, I was also deep in the excessive images. The memories shift painfully while the imagination and contradiction of ‘home’ deferral constantly.

 

From ‘here and now’ to ‘there and then’, these two obscure ends permeate each other. I tried to uncover a path which allow emotions to enter and return freely in the intertwined yet separated space and time. I am not recollecting those fading memories but rather using the medium and visual technique I am familiar with to assemble the memories of home and the imaginary blueprint.